Second Surrender

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There are two days that you must surrender.

The first is the day you surrender living the way you think everybody else wants you to live. The second is the day you surrender living the way you think you should live.

At least that's how it was for me.

I thought I was making room for God's plan when I gave up the life I never really wanted to start with. But really, I only replace that life with my own plans.

It's not enough to just surrender everything outwardly to make room for something Greater; you also have to surrender your inner world, your own beliefs as to how you will get there or how it should happen. You have to get out of your own way, too. It may be your vision, and it was given to you for a reason, but at the end of the day God's plans are always better than ours.

I cleared the canvas, thinking I was making room for whatever God was calling me to do. Yet, I didn't invite God to paint the picture.

It's time for me to hand over the paint brush and let Him lead. That is the true surrender.

To not only make room, but then to let go of the reins. In full faith.


Your gift will make room for you.

                - Proverbs 18:16 

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