Monster in the Mirror
Maybe there are times when our greatest act of love is to keep somebody out… To push them away. To leave them alone. Because even though you tell yourself you’re pushing them away because you’re afraid to be hurt…maybe the truth is something much darker. And much more painful to face than that lowly heartbreak and abandonment I thought I was running from. Maybe you push them away, because some part of you knows that if you stay… They will have to endure a monster. Maybe when they leave, you let them go with such ease because deep down you know–it was only a matter of time. You know it’s only a matter of time until they meet the beast…and you’re left all alone all over again. In the end, it's best to just push them away. Because it always ends the same–you will feel broken. And you will do damage. That second part is pretty hard to swallow. That I have done damage. That I have, in certain ways, been abusive. That I have hurt all the people that I have loved so deeply. That I ...
Comments
Post a Comment